Regret

Have u ever wondered what is worse...?
Saying something you wish you didn't
or not saying something you wish you had?

Distant Learning

This has nothing to do with my father's job which is closely related with distant learning.

This also has no causal connection of me trying to find opportunity for distant learning degree.

Just feeling a bit (very) tired doing waiting, expecting, wondering emails from Goto Sensei. It's just a very simple equation, Senseiiiiii (although the real calculation job took months of efforts and grumblings :D) but still this is a very really real rattling simple equation (I am completely sure this is gramatically incorrect) . If I have to explain face to face, I am quite sure this only takes 10 minutes and ta ta.... everything is cleared up. The thing is : it is almost midnight here in Japan (while in Vienna, the sun shines brightly romantically, beaming with joy of nature, couples are holding hands and so on...), I freeze to death and desire for a sleep after compounded sleeping deficiency (maybe Goto Sensei has lack of sleep too but who cares, he has a family :D, a beautiful wife, a cute daughter).

*Duh, maafkan murid tak tahu terimakasih ini, Sensei*

Try to imagine, the average rate of email's coming is 1 in every 30 minutes. Sometimes less, often more. In the time interval, I am simply doing nothing. No chatting, afraid of falling asleep if I insist laying down. So here I am. Doing nothing. Typing word by word. Feeling worried each time email's notification appears, wishing Sensei to say 'wakarimashita' instead of 'next question is equation 3.6...'. Ouch...

The night is still young, Sensei...

'Like fire, love is usually intiated with a SMALL thing,.. and followed with a BIG commitment'

It was 5 years ago when I received a card with that sentence written on it. It captured my heart ever since. Even years after, we somehow lost the essential things of love itself... but this is one of those things I will remember for always.

源．義経

I have just moved the table, the laptop and its peripherals to the next room, which is my bedroom. I want to write thesis while watching TV. Okay.. uso desu. The main reason, err.. and the only reason actually is him :D. Kakkoi jyan!! It was surprising to see his transformation from 'melambai2'-type man into a real man, exactly like Minamoto Yoshitsune, his role in taiga dorama (大河ドラマ).I hope this is permanent. I really hope so.

Two thumbs up :)。 Too bad.. I just realized this one month before leaving. *Huhuhuhuhu*. What will my sunday night be without seeing Yoshitsune :(

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Wah, semuanya average. Dasar phlegma!!

...Back to the 'Fithr'...

Blessed

Alhamdulillah ALhamdulillah

Selamat Idul Fitri. Minal Aidzin wal Faidzin. Mohon maaf Lahir dan Batin.

Idul Fitri brings together so many blessings. I am so relieved and happy. I am glad I decided to stay and kept trying so that I can see the fruit of what I have been working hard on. Do I deserve to feel happy with these remarks:

slide 21-23 are also very interesting. I am very happy you get such results. Please explain why you can reduce environmental impact and are there any meanings difference of diet composition?

Dear Nana san,
I am reading your thesis.
I am very happy your work is good.

Maybe I overreacted on this but after months of uncertainty and insecurity, finally my Sensei shows his approval. Okay, maybe he is just trying to give me support but I just cant help feeling so very happy. There are still many things and much work to do but at least I know I am walking on the right track.