A Brand New Life

It`s been a while since I last put my life into words in this online journal. There's also so many changes that I wont be able to express ini limited vocabulary that I know of.

I enjoyed my life back to my home country, Indonesia. The food, the warmth, the family, everything, although once in a while I found myself bored of not having anything to do but waiting. From time to time all the same, I miss my life in Japan. I truly had the time of my life there.

I got married with a man I love. Wow, I am now still amazed of the fact that I finally come to this stage. Sometimes when I lay awake in the middle of the night, and realizing there`s a man sleeping next to me, I am still surprised. There`s a feeling of comfort, too.Is that what happiness defines??

And now, I am sitting here in my new apartement in East Lansing, feeling homesick. Longing for familiar things, familiar persons in Indonesia. I finally start my whole new life here, away from families, just the two of us. Certainly have strong sense of anxiety over the prospect that from this moment on I have greater responsibility to fulfill.This fright brings a desire to flee, back into my cosy retreat, but the bigger part of me wishes to fight, in full of hopes that this is only impermanent. Besides, I have all the time to explore this place. All I have to do is to enjoy every single second.

*Malam2 ga bisa tidur, terjadi pergolakan batin*