Self Encouraging

Failure made me realize that there is actually grey area beyond our perception we are incapable to control. Sometimes I woke up in the morning having panic attacks, fearing to face the day, feeling uncertain of what lies ahead (sorry buat yg suka ditelpon pagi2 cuma buat denger panic rumblings-ku). Afraid of failure, afraid of incapabilities to achieve what I really dream of.

Once in a while, when logic delivers the good, I can be very optimistic, without doubts, with full steam ahead, to face the day, but at times, this thing just fails to touch even my superficial brain tissues. On certain occasion, I can be very ambitious and perfectionist, but frequently I lose the the flame and surrender to the failure-prone condition. Bad habit...

Maybe it's just the biggest part of being human, uncertainties. The grey area which is entirely and exclusively His wills. What must be fostered is the faith the in anyway whatsoever, what happened, happens and will happen are in essence for our greater good, in spite of the difficulties to accept the reality at the very start (as it is different from what we might want it to be).

All we need to do is, doing the supreme effort we can make, let the world do as it will.

Go unchallenged :)
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