Enervation

Its been too long I havent visited my blog. Too many things happened at once and I just had to rearrange all must-do tasks and want-to-do tasks simultaneously.

I have no significant progress in my research. Although sensei assured me that he is satisfied with all I have done, I am the one who knows perfectly that my research contains many flaws. I have spent days cerebrating and assuming, but to find solution for the problems. It was all for naught. Zero.Big question mark. Reduced to nil all the work I had done before. Okay, now stop complaining. I still believe I'll think of something, somehow..

I have to admit that I am not a kind of persevering student. I have propensity of being procrastinator. I want many but do little. Realizing this fact doesn't do much in me, this condition is going on all the same. And in the end all that is left is regret. What's the problem with me anyway? (Did I say 'Stop complaining'?? Here I go again...)

Meantime, any other things don't work out well, either. I spent days in the apartment, establishing social communication with imaging, no real contact with human, fleshy human. I dont think it is healthy, just make my astigmatism even worse. And I feel even more needy to my computer than anything in this world, for this is the only thing that is able to offer solution to all problems I am facing at the moment...