Getting Acquainted with East Lansing

`How can I at least live the town if I dont know good things about it?`. Maybe I am being too judgmental first time I got here. I don`t see people walking around here, too quiet, it`s way too different from Indonesia. Even from Toyohashi. All I was thinking was 'I wanna go home, I will go home`

Anyway, my feet went back to the ground. I have to act rationally and there came the sentence `How can I at least live the town if I dont know good things about it?`. I`ll enjoy the town eventually, it just takes time. No need to rush.

I went to Indonesian Moslem Gathering, went shopping to IKEA, walked around the campus, trying out the bus routes. I love the campus. It`s so.... hmmm.... academically alive. In fact, East Lansing is all about MSU(Michigan State University). This town lives for MSU. I saw ducks in a small river flowing through the campus site, vast areas under the tree here and there. It wont be difficult to find some place to enjoy myself viewing the scenery here.

Everyday is a new adventure to me. For the first time here I earnestly learn to cook. It is actually exciting thing. It`s not difficult to find the spices, unlike in Japan. I went cycling, exploring the locality, with my new bike!! I am trying to make my day-after-day activities as exciting as possible.

I still miss home, I always do.

A Brand New Life

It`s been a while since I last put my life into words in this online journal. There's also so many changes that I wont be able to express ini limited vocabulary that I know of.

I enjoyed my life back to my home country, Indonesia. The food, the warmth, the family, everything, although once in a while I found myself bored of not having anything to do but waiting. From time to time all the same, I miss my life in Japan. I truly had the time of my life there.

I got married with a man I love. Wow, I am now still amazed of the fact that I finally come to this stage. Sometimes when I lay awake in the middle of the night, and realizing there`s a man sleeping next to me, I am still surprised. There`s a feeling of comfort, too.Is that what happiness defines??

And now, I am sitting here in my new apartement in East Lansing, feeling homesick. Longing for familiar things, familiar persons in Indonesia. I finally start my whole new life here, away from families, just the two of us. Certainly have strong sense of anxiety over the prospect that from this moment on I have greater responsibility to fulfill.This fright brings a desire to flee, back into my cosy retreat, but the bigger part of me wishes to fight, in full of hopes that this is only impermanent. Besides, I have all the time to explore this place. All I have to do is to enjoy every single second.

*Malam2 ga bisa tidur, terjadi pergolakan batin*